Dejected, Firdaus walks back to her hut and wonders about her future.īack at her hut, she thinks about her parents and wonders if they are her real parents. She says she wants to study at the university too, but her uncle says that only men are allowed to study there. Whenever he would leave to go back home, she would follow him to the train station and beg him to take her with him. He is an educated man who studies in Cairo and teaches her how to read. Firdaus no longer feels "the sharp pleasure." She tries to recall it, but it’s as if a part of her was gone and would never return.įirdaus now shifts her focus to her uncle. There, her uncle begins to touch her like Mohammadain does-but her uncle takes it even further. After her clitoris is removed, Firdaus is given duties around her family’s hut. They swam together and “played at bride and bridegroom.” When Mohammadain touched her, she felt a sharp pleasure. After dropping off her load, she would play with a boy named Mohammadain. Typically, Firdaus’s mother sent her to the fields with manure. She asks her mother how she had given birth without a father, and, in response, her mother has her circumcised. They all look so similar that she can’t tell which one is her father.
Firdaus sees them walking back from the sermon as she fetches water for the family. Every Friday, he and the other men of their village attend the imam’s weekly prayer. He knew very few things in life they included how to grow crops, how to sell his sick farm animals to unsuspecting buyers, and how to beat his wife, amongst other unsavory talents. Her father was an illiterate, poor farmer. She explains that the makeup, hair, and shoes she acquired from being a prostitute were the only “upper-class” things about her. As a prostitute, she hid her fear with her makeup.
Because she is a woman, though, she was always afraid of doing that. She doesn’t know every man who appears in the paper personally, but every man she does get to know makes her want to smack him across the face. The idea of this fills her with pride and makes her feel superior to everyone, particularly kings, princes, and rulers.įirdaus also admits that whenever she sees a picture of a man in the newspaper, she spits on him. Her hanging is tomorrow, and soon she will transition to a place unknown to everyone on earth.
She wants to get her story out before her executioners come and take her. Firdaus starts her story by commanding the psychiatrist not to speak.
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